What I have come to learn in the past coupleish months.

God really is good.

God can be trusted.

God knows more than I do.

God is faithful.

I am not in control of anything.

And that is a very good thing.

List

I am thankful for...(this is not an all inclusive list and not in any particular order)

Yes, I am a nerd and retarded for typing this all out but oh well lol

1. God.
2. Faith.
3. Mom and Dad.
4. The rest of my immediate and extended family.
5. Amazing Friends.
6. Forgiveness.
7. Thinking.
8. Books.
9. Words.
10. Good Conversation.
11. Laughter.
12. Smiling.
13. Bookstores.
14. Trees.
15. Love.
16. Grace.
17. Warm Cinnamon Rolls.
18. Homemade Bread.
19. Day Dreaming.
20. Sunsets.
21. Beautiful Music.
22. The smell of fresh cut grass.
23. Reading.
24. Apple Cider.
25. Long Rambling Walks.
26. Brant Hansen.
27. Makeup (sometimes).
28. Toms.
29. Music.
30. Mercy.
31. Lanie George.
32. Writing.
33. The Moon.
34. Good Movies.
35. Clear Night Skies.
36. Running.
37. The sound of rain falling on the roof as you fall asleep.
38. Blue.
39. Justice.
40. Green.
41. Tyler Clark.
42. Pain.
43. Tears.
44. Life.
45. Getting Packages.
46. The Sun.
47. Violin.
48. Spell Check.
49. Family.
50. Contacts.
51. Sunshine.
52. The smell of used books.
53. My Car.
54. Justin Glacken (best nonrelated brother ever)
55. New Clothes.
56. C.S. Lewis.
57. School.
58. Joy.
59. Summer Thunderstorms.
60. Fall.
61. Stepping on Crunchy Leaves.
62. Shorts.
63. The Country.
64. Hoodies.
65. Sleeping.
66. Blankets.
67. Silence.
68. Swimming.
69. Kids.
70. Church.
71. Peace.
72. Mountains.
73. Texting.
74. Phone Calls.
75. Flip Flops.
76. Dancing.
77. Spinning Around.
78. Patience.
79. Bubble Wrap.
80. Being Outside.
81. Cooking.
82. Baking.
83. Hot Chocolate.
84. Bonfires.
85. Fuzzy Socks.
86. Narnia.
87. Wind.
88. Prayer.
89. The Bible.
90. Granola.
91. Journals.
92. Sleep.
93. Running Shoes.
94. Fresh Pineapple.
95. People.
96. Dresses.
97. Water.
98. Francis Chan.
99. Honesty.
100. Thinking.
101. Driving with the Windows Down.
102. Hugs.
103. The Sea.
104. Misty Mornings.
105. Andrew Peterson.
106. Letters.
107. Good Food.
108. Ah ha moments in life.
109. Beauty.
110. Kisses.
111. Sunglasses.
112. Skirts.
113. Dogs.
114. Freedom.
115. Hot Showers.
116. Buttons.
117. Helping People.
118. Drawing.
119. Driving.
120. Jeans.
121. Nursing.
122. Good Memories.
123. Flowers.
124. My Hands.
125. Watermelon.
126. Fruit.
127. NPR radio.
128. Lord of the Rings.
129. Truth.
130. Sunrises.
131. My Job.
132. Perspective.
133. Tea.
134. Stars.
135. Laughing so hard you can't breath.
136. Good Quotes.
137. Clouds.
138. Smiles.
139. Running in the rain.
140. Hope.
141. Trials.
142. Ultimate Frisbee.
143. Water.
144. Parks.
145. Pens.
146. Swings.
147. Snow Days.
148. Spring.
149. Swimming.
150. That I am myself.

If you read all that I applaud you lol

Now I am going to go do something constructive with the rest of my day. I hope you all have a fantastic weekend!

The end :)

...

You are in the middle of your own story, and the Author is leading you somewhere.  There will be much to be afraid of in your future.  You will find yourself angry at times, shaking your fist at the sky.  You will find yourself weary and worn thin.  Remember that the writer of your story is leading you to a good land.  He is making you into something unimaginably beautiful, a shining immortal, a prince or princess in his eternal Kingdom.  There will be journeys in the seen world, and there will be journeys in the unseen one.

-Andrew Peterson

I love this.

This idea.

The hope that it contains.

I had a temper tantrum this morning of epic proportions.

I was very very much shaking my fist at the sky telling my God that I wanted to do things MY way.

I was tired of hurting. Tired of caring.

I wanted to check out.

I wanted to run away.

So.

Bad.

But I didn't.

I trusted in the midst of my unbelief.

And God showed up and pushed me to step out.

We'll see how it goes.