Forgot to turn off my "time to leave my car and go into work" alarm last night so 0638 I am rudely awakened by a blaring noise to the right of my head and the first thought that flashes through my head as I blearily open my eyes, "It's awfully dark outside to be 8:15..." Oppps.
Though waking up at 6:40 on a Saturday morning is not typically how I enjoy spending my weekend--it worked out. I finished reading Opening Moves I started it on Tuesday so it was about time that I finished ;)
Then I went running upon stepping outside into the crisp morning air and seeing the whispers of fall as the sun filters through a veil of leaves that are on the cusp of turning brilliant reds, oranges, and yellows I realized once again being outside is good for my soul. As music echoed through my headphones and reverberated through my head I came to the realization once again that I am incredibly fortunate and God is so so ridiculously good.
And I decided in that moment what I want my life to be characterized by--I want to live a life that is known by infectious joy and I want to live as if I hold the secret to a meaningful life that everyone is searching for, because I am. I want to live as if I really get that I am forgiven, free, and deeply loved.

And I also came to the realization that I am still the 17 year old girl that I use to be--I have changed but I am still the same in the ways that matter most. And that relieves me.

Today was super long and I am exhausted.
There is my one sentence.
Ha.

Goals I am making for myself.
Write daily even if only a sentence.
Run once a day if I work--twice a day if I am off--even if it is only for 10 mins.
Grow in patience.
Become ok with the fact that I don't know what my future holds (and stop trying to figure it out)
Finally come to terms with the fact that I am 22 years old...
Whattttttttt

I am thankful for bad days at work because they help me appreciate the good days all that much more.

God, You know where I've been
You were there with me then
You were faithful before
You'll be faithful again

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