Scared.

I'm scared...
What if God isn't real? What if Heaven doesn't exist? What if what I have believed to be true isn't?
What if?
You know why I'm scared...because if it isn't true, my life doesn't look that bad. Nothing much in my life looks to bad if Heaven doesn't exist. If it doesn't...hey you know what...I still have lived a pretty comfortable life.
I've "wasted" very little of my time serving God, so if it isn't true...I'm good.
If God doesn't exist...so what? I haven't used alot of time and energy doing things that make no sense apart from God.

This is what scares me; my life doesn't look like a waste apart from God being real.
A problem this is, yes.

I don't love Him enough...