Friday, September 7, 2012

I am tired.
These last few weeks have been a little crazy and at it doesn't look like it's going to slow down for at least the next couple weeks. 

There is so much I want to write that I don't know where to start... So many thoughts are bouncing around in my head and I don't know what to do with it all.

Last Thursday I read an essay by Jason Gray that I have kept returning to when I feel espeically worn down and weary. 
Because see I am already an incredilby analytical person and when I am reaching exhaustion my mind kicks into overdrive and I start over anaylizing the heck out of everything that I do and say and I see judgment and annoyance lurking in the eyes everyone around me. So when I read something like < that it resonates with me. My prayer this week has often been "Dear God, please let your voice be louder than my insecurities" 

I want to identify myself by the fact that God loves me just as I am right now and that is the only thing that matters.
It's just hard because I have to fight so hard against the voices that whisper in my ears that I am not enough.

In other news I am reading the book The Ragamuffin Gospel. And have fallen in love with it.