Wednesday, October 31, 2007
He has showed you, O man, what is good.
And what does the LORD require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy
and to walk humbly with your God.
"Amos has written a whole book on doing justice; Hosea has written a whole book on loving mercy; Isaiah has written a whole book on walking humbly before your God. But Micah is going to sum it up in one wonderful expression--what does God want of you!?
He wants you to do justice, love mercy, and walk humbly before Him.
And ofcourse Micah got it wrong,and we now know better. We know what God requires of us is to read our bibles, pray, and go to church. Now don't get me wrong. There's nothing wrong with praying--if you love the living God you'll talk to Him. There's nothing wrong with going to Church--the author of the epistle to the Hebrews says, "Don't neglect meeting together as is the habit of some." That's really important; Thomas missed out on the first meeting of the church so he missed out on the Lord of the church. Don't fire when it comes to getting together. And don't miss out reading your Bible, you want a living God's world, God's way--read God's word, it's absolutely crucial! But reading your bible, praying, and going to church are not the evidence of your faith! They're the benefits, they're the blessings of your faith. The evidence of your faith! What the world is world is waiting to see! Is that you do justice.... love mercy.... and you walk humbly with your God."
"What do they mean? Well it's like going up a staircase and Micah starts at the bottom-- the lowest rung is doing justice. And it's not speak justice. It's not sign a petition or make a public statement. Justice is something you do and doing justice means giving people what they deserve- giving people what they should have the right to half. We're here to do justice folks."
"Then Micah takes it up a notch--love mercy. Hosea calls it loving kindness it's the loving kindness of God. And we're called to love mercy and mercy means giving people what they don't deserve."
"You do justice--it means you give people what is their right. You love mercy--means you give people what goes way beyond their right.
And then the third one is walking humbly with your God. And the problem is when you do justice and you love mercy you normally get proud of it. And that's why it's so important to walk humbly with your God."
"So God sent his first born, his only Son and he died. The only one who'd done justice, loved mercy, and walked humbly with his God--gave his life. Why? 'Cause you can't even do justice--let alone, love mercy and walk humbly with your God. You can't even give people what they deserve. You can't do it. And because you can't; Jesus died. And he died not in order that you might read your bible, pray, and go to church. He died that in order that when his spirit came and flooded your life--you would have the power to do justice, love mercy, and walk humbly with Him. What comes first? What's the most important? The proclamation of the Gospel. Because you can't do social action without Jesus."
Now playing: Clive Calver - The Church Pursuing His Fame
If you don't like it sorry, if you don't like reading song lyrics or endless quotes I'm really sorry. But this is me. =P I've never had an original thought. I'm just a broken record. =P
I still see how pervasive my fear of man is... Haha, ok guys I know I'm lame and you're going to think I'm retarded but...that's ok. lol This is my head sometimes
"Hmmm should I post these lyrics?
What if people think they're annoying to read?
What if no one reads them?"
"Hmmm should I post on this subject?
What if people think I'm just being a superficial kid?
What if they think I'm just posting it because it's a "Christian" thing to do?
What if people think I don't really mean it?"
"Should I really post that this is what I struggle with or when something "bad" happens?
What if people think that I'm just being depressing?
What do people expect me to post about?"
"Should I post that I care to much about what I write/post about? What if people think that I'm just a suck up? What if they think that I don't really mean the stuff I post about? What if people think that I'm retarded for worrying to much? Ok, Ming, you really need to stop. =P"
So if I say something that offends you or I'm wrong about something then please tell me; that's not what I mean when I say that I don't care. But if you aren't going to read my blog because I post to many lyrics or you don't like to read a bunch of quotes....Ummm well don't read it then...? Haha not that anyone even reads this. But I just felt like I had to say it.
Now that I've gotten that off my chest. =P
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Monday, October 29, 2007
When he finished- the British forgot they were British.
They stood. They clapped, they cheered, some even stomped their feet.
And the impresario went running round the back, he said, "Magnificent! Incredible! Fantastic! Tremendous!... Play an encore!" And the young man said, "Nope." The impresario said, "Their standing for you! You must play an encore." The young man said, "No, they're not, that old man at the back is sitting." "Oh, he doesn't know his music." said the impresario. "Oh yes, he does." said the young man, "That old man sitting's my teacher; if he was standing and everyone else was sitting I'd play an encore. He's sitting. No, encore.""
"2,000 years ago a man named Stephen died. Now you can't earn your salvation-- that's settled by your response to crucified love. All you can earn is your reception in heaven. When Stephen died, his face shone as he forgave those killing him.
His face shone, as he saw that Jesus was seated at the right hand of his father in heaven. But scripture doesn't say he saw Jesus sitting next to his father. Scripture says he saw Jesus standing.
Standing for one who lived for Him- standing for one who died for Him."
"The only question is --Are we going to live in such a way, that as Church we're going to pursue His fame. Not ours. As Church we're going to pursue His righteousness. Not ours. As Church we're going to pursue His will. Not ours. That as Church we're going; to do justice, love mercy, and walk humbly with our God. Rather than bless and advance what we have ourselves.
The only question is --When we get to heaven, is Jesus going to be sitting to say, "Welcome Home." Or is he going to be standing to say, "Well done! You gave, you loved, you cared, you prayed! Together we changed our world!"
I want to be part of a Church that gets Jesus standing--- because we pursued His fame."
I was doing dishes while listening to this Saturday night and it pretty much changed my life. It was one of those things you listen to, then the second it's done you go and listen to it again. (Which I did. =P)
Do I pursue this? Heck to I even desire it? I mean really? Do I yearn for my Father's approval or the crowd...
When it comes down to it; do I play for the audience or do I play for my Father...
Would I play an encore if the world was standing and Jesus was sitting?
Pffft forget the world I'd probably play an encore if a select handful of people were standing. Yet would I play again if the world was sitting- yet Jesus was standing?
If the whole world thought I was wacked yet my Father in heaven was standing- Would. I. play. again.?
Why do I do the things I do? What is my life really about?
I have to get this right guys. I don't want to be superficial. I don't want to fake this. I really don't.
Am I making any sense? Or am I losing my mind?
Ok, I'll stop my tangent now...shutting up.
Now playing: Clive Calver - The Church Pursuing His Fame
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Thursday was fun, Frisbee was nonexistent--- but I still had alot of fun.
"you bet your life it is!" =P
"she loved it" hahaha =P
and Lauren's "bosses" name. wow.
And it would have been more than slightly awkward =P
(This entry isn't really suppose to make sense. =P)
Thursday and Friday were fun,
Thursday; even though we didn't play Frisbee it was way to much fun. Hahaha. wow. Sitting in the car for an hour waiting for people but reading interesting stories of our life is pretty entertaining. "You bet your life it is!" =P But Mark reading Lauren's "bosses" name was hilarious. haha Tyler just wait for it you're going to be in there too. =P
Friday; Ying and I went to Kate and Beth's to spend the night. My favorite Beth "Guys we are going to bed by 9:30 and going to be sleeping by 10 because I have a soccer game in the morning" And who kept talking allll night long =P
Skittles are amazing.
I can't eat alot of cookie dough or I get sick...
Thursday, October 25, 2007
I don't want it to go away.
We need it soo bad.
But on the other hand it looks so terribly, dreary out. One of those days I just would love to curl up under a blanket, on the couch, with a book. =P Alas, that's not to be today. Oh well. =)
Yesterday I printed off this article and went back to my room too read it because it was something I wanted to really think about. Here's a small part of it;
"Essentially, we don't just love God (and therefore others, 1 John 4:20) because He first loved us. We also love God more by focusing on His love for us." From this article another except;
"Since then I've been grabbing those pockets in my day where I'm not feeling very excited about God and trying to refocus not on how to recapture that feeling through some psychological or religious gymnastics, but rather on the Gospel and what it says about God's love for me. And it's funny how even the most dry times get vibrant in a place like that."
Oh isn't that brilliant?? I loved it. It's so much easier to be happy when I focus on that. And I mean really, really focus on it.
What am I rooted in? Simply habit or a deep love for God? Hmmm. Something I need to ask myself more often. But yeah read the article it's well worth the five minutes it takes to read it.
On a completely different note "she loved it." I laughed. It was hilarious yet...messed up...but hilarious. =P
Frisbee tonight.! Well maybe because of the rain it won't happen but that's ok we'll find something to do. Maybe we could all read that book together. Since I mean it is about us. =P
By the way, I'm kidding.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Well that's been me for the past few days. I sit down to write and then realize that there's no way for me to say everything I'm thinking.
And I couldn't pick just one thought because one thought just seemed so insignificant compared to the dozens that were floating around in my head.
Just stuff like-
Really wanting to be sure that I get this whole Christian thing and if I don't how can I?
How can I make sure that I never come across as superficial?
What will it take to humble me?
Why is it so hard to love?
Talking to people is awesome.
What on earth does God have in store for me?
What will my future look like?
What does true worship actually look like?
Francis Chan can dance.
I wonder what Peter felt like seeing Jesus for the first time after denying him?
My friends are awesome.
My best friends are amazing.
Why can't people just be real?
What's heaven going to be like?
How cool is it going to be to meet people?
How amazing is it going to be, be! in the presence of God...
I love God.
I don't love God enough.
Just to name a few.
Yeah my head. =P
I was re-reading The Sin of Convenience and once again made me reevaluate myself...
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
36 Simon Peter said to him, “Lord, where are you going?” Jesus answered him, “Where I am going you cannot follow me now, but you will follow afterward.” 37 Peter said to him, “Lord, why can I not follow you now? I will lay down my life for you.” 38 Jesus answered, “Will you lay down your life for me? Truly, truly, I say to you, the rooster will not crow till you have denied me three times.
15 When they had finished breakfast, Jesus said to Simon Peter, “Simon, son of John, do you love me more than these?” He said to him, “Yes, Lord; you know that I love you.” He said to him, “Feed my lambs.” 16 He said to him a second time, “Simon, son of John, do you love me?” He said to him, “Yes, Lord; you know that I love you.” He said to him, “Tend my sheep.” 17 He said to him the third time, “Simon, son of John, do you love me?” Peter was grieved because he said to him the third time, “Do you love me?” and he said to him, “Lord, you know everything; you know that I love you.” Jesus said to him, “Feed my sheep. 18 Truly, truly, I say to you, when you were young, you used to dress yourself and walk wherever you wanted, but when you are old, you will stretch out your hands, and another will dress you and carry you where you do not want to go.” 19 (This he said to show by what kind of death he was to glorify God.) And after saying this he said to him, “Follow me.”
So finally Shoreline updated. And while other people were at the amazingness of Frisbee tonight I was listening to it. =) They were covering the last chapter in John and it was amazing.
It was so good that I could write pages about it but I don't feel like writing that much so I'm just going to write about what was sorta going through my head when Brian Colmery was talking about how Jesus was asking Peter 3 times if he loved him....
All the things that Peter had gone through that had brought him to that point. The big headed, proud, the proverbial "Rock" had been broken- crushed. That's what it took to humble him...
And it was only after he had been broken and humbled that God was use him in absolutely amazing ways.
What is it going to take for me to come the end of myself, so that God can use me however he chooses? What's it going to take to break me.? Uncomfortable questions.
Monday, October 22, 2007
"May today there be peace within:
May you trust God that you are exactly where you
are meant to be;
May you not forget the infinite possibilities that
are born of faith;
May you use those gifts that you have
and pass on the love that has been given
May you be content knowing you are a child
Let His presence settle into your
and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance,
praise and love.
It is there for each and every one of
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Sound random? Yeah my weekend. =P
Friday, October 19, 2007
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
I like this song though
Every last breath
I scream for You
Shatter me into a million pieces...Make me new
Crush me, tear me, break me, mold me
Make me what You want me to be
I am your's for You to use
So, take and replace me with You
My day was made.
No, the song didn't make it. =P
But it was made, nough said. =P
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Then I went to school and pretty much listened to Come Thou Fount over and over. I don't know I could just sit on those words for a longggg time. Anyways it made me happy. =)
And I'm done with bones part 1....yes. =P
Come Thou fount of every blessing
Tune my heart to sing Thy grace
Streams of mercy never ceasing
Call for songs of loudest praise
And teach me some melodious
Sung by flaming tongues above
I'll praise the mount, I'm fixed
Mount of Thy redeeming love
Here I raise my Ebenezer
Hither by Thy help I come
And I hope by Thy good pleasure
Safely to arrive at home
Jesus sought me when a stranger
Wandering from the fold of God
He to rescue me from danger
Interposed His precious blood
Oh, to grace how great a debtor
Daily I'm constrained to be
And let Thy goodness like a fetter
Bind my wandering heart to Thee
Prone to wander, Lord I feel it
Prone to leave the God I love
Here's my heart Lord, take and
Seal it for Thy courts above
Monday, October 15, 2007
God loves me and I'm going to heaven one day. That in and of itself should fill me with an indescribable joy. But today has been a "good" day for me. =)
I don't put an awful lot of stock in my feelings because they can be so finicky, but right now I'm feeling splendid. =)
- Waking up early and reading my bible while drinking a warm liquid substance is just fun and enjoyable and I love God. =)
- Talking to God.
- Talking to people.
- Anatomy Class when my amazing teacher remembers that our class is ahead of all her other classes. So she decides to do a review where we can ask questions. But reviews frustrate her because it just shows the class hasn't studied yet, so she changes her mind and decides that we are going to play a game instead and whichever group wins gets 5 extra points on their next test. Haha, it was actually alot of fun.
- Studying bones while eating Caesar salad.
- Just thinking about how amazing God is.
- The weather outside, fall is a.m.a.z.i.n.g.
- Having my windows open =D
- !!!!One of my favorite podcasts updated!!!! That made me soooo happy =D
- Oh my gosh...so I just listened to it and it was amazing. And now my other favorite one updated. =D God knows how to make my day. =)
It wasn't just the miracles. It was the love that drove him to the miracles. It wasn't just that he healed the lepers; it was that he touched the lepers, because nobody ever touched the lepers."
"I've come to see that following after Jesus isn't just about having a better vision - but it's about having new eyes. It's about seeing people differently. One of my friends he said, "You know Jesus never talked to a prostitute." I said, "Oh yeah he did!" and I start ripping open my bible and start preaching at him. He's like "No, no, no. Listen to me Jesus never talked to a prostitute because he didn't see a prostitute. He saw child that he's madly in love with."
That's the new eyes that if we could see each other with not as just - rich or poor black or white prostitute or addicts or alcoholics. If we could begin to see with the eyes of Jesus and see the image of God in every person we meet; and allow them to see God living through us."
This so isn't me.
I see people for their outward appearances.
Labeling is something that I'm way to good at.
Rarely do I see the image of God in a person and I think even less often do they see God living in me.
My identity is in Christ. I need to start being true to it.....in ever facet of my life.
Sunday, October 14, 2007
On the way there I read, listened to music among other things, and got salad tossed on me... Thanks to my sister.
It was nice to see Emily and Alex again though. My 4 year old cousin is a.d.o.r.a.b.l.e. yup and we got along splendidly so it was great. =) Emily is pretty much a little Ying, so she and Ying got along too. =P Alex and Jun-Fung had fun wrestling and stuff like that so that worked as well.
The ride home was long...
It's good to be home. I love you all.
Anyways I took a ton of pictures. You don't have to look at them I just felt like putting them up. lol
We were playing some sort of fishing game
...no comment? =P
Yeah he's cute =)
=) I like this picture
Yeah see what I was saying about them being alike?
hahaha Emily is amazing. =)
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Thursday, October 11, 2007
I know guys, the suspense is killing me too. Are you ready for it?
I want my whole life to be about getting to know and having an overwhelming, mysterious, reckless, all-consuming, life altering, life abandoning Love. I want my life to be filled and defined by an unexplainable, inconceivable, crazy, maxed out kind of love. My life goal and ambitions is pursuing that Love; because that Love pursued me first.
Loving God? Loving people? With a deep unfathomable love?
My ambitions are high. =D
It's going to be my career, falling in love with my Creator and Savior.
Pffft, and I was worried about what I was going to do when I "grew up".
I can't get away from it.
I know, I'm really repetitive. I sound like a broken record. But I can't escape this. I can't stop thinking about it. God loves me. He loves me perfectly. I can't wrap my mind around this.
How can I not love Him? How can I not love the things He loves (people)? I'm called to have crazy, supernatural, insane love for everyone. And it's possible for me to have it, because I've been given an identity in Christ. Yet rarely to I live true to Christ's identity...my identity.
"The joy of Christians should be contagious, not because their life is always great by the world’s standards but because their life is always great by God’s standards. Not because we feel like we should be that way, but because, as God so powerfully works in us, we are. Jesus thought the person collecting money in the tollbooth was worth a passing moment of actual care. A warm smile and a twinkle of understanding in the eye. The lady behind the diner counter was important to Him. He didn’t ignore people, because he never had anything on his mind that was a higher priority. He didn’t rate them or base his response on their usefulness to Him or their respect of His rights. He lived a life of love.
This is the God we follow, and this is the road He’s called us to walk on. It’s not about us, it never has been. It’s about humility, and perspective. It’s about being filled with the Spirit every day. But most of all, it’s about reckless, overwhelming, box-breaking, life abandoning love all the time."
Mmmmm, that's a lovely, lovely thought. =)
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
It would take much to long to talk about everything that we did. So I'm just not going to. =)
Highlight; getting lost in Brownes Ferry. Way to go Lauren =P. Oh and dinner at CFA. Lauren, Kate, Carter, Mark, and Tyler are awesome. Most definitely.
Ok and I didn't fail my Biology test!!!!!! Do you have any idea how happy I was/am?!?! No. I don't think you do. =P
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
Monday, October 8, 2007
Where are am I rooted.?
Where do I need to be rooted?
As much as it did hurt being ripped up, I'm really seeing the good in it now. God's good. =)
Haha, I'll just have to remember that next time I'm being "transplanted" again.
Cause I do really really want to grow.
This morning's conversation with Lauren - was amazing. You guys wish you were cool enough to listen to 3 messages like her and not only listen to them but practically apply them immediately. =) Yeah, I love her.
Saturday, October 6, 2007
You are beautiful beyond description
Too marvelous for words
Too wonderful for comprehension
Like nothing ever seen or heard
Who can grasp Your infinite wisdom
Who can fathom the depths of Your love
You are beautiful beyond description
Majesty, enthroned above
And I stand, I stand in awe of You
I stand, I stand in awe of You
Holy God to whom all praise is due
I stand in awe of You
Now playing: Francis Chan - The Holy Spirit, part 6
But be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves. For if anyone is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man who looks intently at his natural face in a mirror. For he looks at himself and goes away and at once forgets what he was like. But the one who looks into the perfect law, the law of liberty, and perseveres, being no hearer who forgets but a doer who acts, he will be blessed in his doing.
So whoever knows the right thing to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin.
"The thing that sometimes frustrates me in churches is that; we like to discuss truth more than respond to truth. If you were to ask me what the biggest problem in the American Church I would say we like to talk about truth, we don't like to apply it. The greatest need in the American church is not greater knowledge - but greater conviction. A conviction that actually results in action. That actually causes us to do something."
Yeah...I have to get this guys. have to.
Now playing: Francis Chan - The Holy Spirit, part 6
Friday, October 5, 2007
So after class yesterday I cleaned the house and I read a book. Oh my gosh that was amazing. I've been reading this book for like a week and I was finally able to finish it. !! it was good.
In other news I was completely psyched about Frisbee. Tyler, being brilliant decided that we should start at 6 instead of 6:30. Which meant yesterday we actually started at 6:30 instead of 7. lol So I had alot of fun playing, even if I sucked. lol And hanging out afterward and talking was fun too. =)
Then the rest of my night went well to a point...then well. =P People are silly. This I have decided. lol
But it's all good cause God's so good, He loves me, knows what's best for me, and I'm going to heaven. =D *and I mean that in the most real un-cliche way possible.
This morning I woke up at the obnoxious time of 5:30...yeahhh. not necessarily fun stuff but that's ok. =) You guys should really feel sorry for Justin he's had to put up with Ying and I for at least a portion of everyday for over 2 weeks.
After dropping Ying and Justin off I pretty much blasted David Crowder all the way home. Haha, I like happy music. If you didn't already know that. =P
This is my life. There is always something. always. And if there isn't, I promise you there is something on the way. =P I just need to learn to roll with it. I'm trying guys I really am. I'm just a work in constant progress. =P
"God, I need you sooo bad. so bad."
"Yup, I know you do. Good thing I'm here then huh?"
"Yeah, pretty much. =)"
Why does it have to be when life isn't going the way we want it to that we grow the most? Why is it when things hurt that you grow? When I'm so tempted to push back when he's molding me it take a very active type of trust to an active type of faith. (does that even make sense to anyone else? lol)
Faith and trust are such hard things.
I'm sick of this whole building character thing =P justttt kidding. lol
"My eyes are small but they have seen
The beauty of enormous things"
"Life makes it so hard sometimes
To know what’s real
When I can’t feel You there
When I can’t see You there
When I can’t comprehend that You are there
You are there
You are everywhere
There’s light enough to see"
"So we lift up our voices
We open our hands
To cling to the love
That we can’t comprehend"
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
Exam 1# Average: 68 + 10 curve = 78
I freaked more. After he was finished writing that horrid junk, he then tells us that he won't tell us what we got til the end of class. I nearly died. The whole class I was sitting there tortured about the 10 "other" grades that could very well be me. So while we are talking about Los Vegas trying to pass a law where it's illegal to feed the homeless and whether or not spanking is right. In the back of my mind the large number 10 is forever present...the number 78 average on the board very harshly glaring at me from the board.
So finally we get done with class and he hands out the tests to various individuals. Gasps of dismay are floating around all over the class room. I hear things like "I didn't think I did that bad!", "I thought I had that!", and "What???!!!". These things do not help me feel any better...
And ofcourse my is at the bottom...So finally he comes down to the last 2 tests. I forgot to write my name on mine and so did this other kid...whoops. lol So Mr. Sember is standing there trying to figure out who's is who's and I'm just feeling worse and worse. Finally we figure out that my handwriting is small and I wrote alot. So he hand me my test back and I pretty much almost cry in relief.
I didn't get an "other".
My week is made.
Monday, October 1, 2007
- Thomas Watson
I read that and it made me indescribably happy. =)