Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Everyone has a story.

Everyone has regrets.

We have all just become masters at hiding it.

This is what I have discovered.

Or we are the only ones that have kids like this. (silly children have a way of not doing what you want them too and getting in trouble.)

We all dance around imagining that we are the only ones that could possibly feel this way.

I wonder what we would do if for a day we just put down the masks and looked at each other.

I think we would be surprised about the things we would see.

Whoever you are--wherever you are in life.

You're never alone.


I promise other people screw up too.

I am a sinner bought at a great price.

I am the son that ran away from a loving father.

I am the self-righteous son that stayed.

I died and am alive in Christ.

I am a daughter deeply loved.

And that is so much more than enough for me.

Monday, October 10, 2011

I was listening to Jason Gray's new CD on the way to work (big surprise) lol

But there is a song called Nothing is Wasted.

And that thought struck me.


Some how and some way my Redeemer picks up all the little broken pieces of my life--and including even the most cracked bits creates a beautiful work of art.

And sometimes it's the pieces that are the most screwed up that add the most beauty to these paintings that are our lives.

I think when I get to heaven--I'm going to look back at my life with my mouth agape and be absolutely astounded at what God was working out behind the scenes.

Everything for my good and His glory.


Sunday, October 9, 2011

Jason Gray!

Has a new album!! :)

When I lose my way,
And I forget my name
Remind me who I am
In the mirror all I see
Is who I don't wanna be
Remind me who I am

In the loneliest places
When I cant remember what grace is

Tell me, once again
Who I am to You, who I am to You
Tell me, lest I forget
Who I am to You, that I belong to You
To You

When my heart is like a stone,
And I'm running far from home
Remind me who I am
When I cant receive Your love
Afraid I'll never be enough
Remind me who I am

If I'm Your beloved can You help me believe it ...?

I'm the one You love, I'm the one You love
That will be enough, I'm the one You love

Tell me, once again
Who I am to You, who I am to You
Tell me, lest I forget
Who I am to You, that I belong to You

There's something that rises up in me when I hear these lyrics, it comes from deep within me and I want this to be my song.

God loves me.
And He loved me first.
And He will love me til the last.
And nothing I or anyone else can do can snatch me out of His hand.
Cause He calls me beloved daughter.
And that's enough for me. period.
Let me remember what grace is.

Now I must wake up much to early and go to work and I have a 2.5mg tablet of melatonin surging through my blood stream so I'm going to bed.

Goodnight everyone :)

Saturday, October 1, 2011


I am a really depressing writer most of the time aren't I?

Haha, I guess writing is my therapy when I am feeling especially crappy.

Some people drink, smoke, I write. lol

Sometimes I wish I could have a cute blog. Kinda like Lauren's--with cute stories about my life and about nursing. And just be overall adorable kinda like her :)

OR I wish I could have some super awesome blog like Brant Hansen with witty intellectual posts.

But alas. I am not them. (darn it)

I am Ming and I am stuck with my crazy rambling brain and ADD self. (I don't really have ADD I just lack focus sometimes lol)

I am also sick. Nursing a cold that has decided to make a home in my sinus with tea and Vitamin C. :)

This comes probably from getting my wisdom teeth pulled on Thursday--and then trying to work Friday--and not being able to because I threw up/almost passed out...whoops.

In other news...life has been ok. Nothing exciting and for me this is good. I need a break.

I'm tired of getting my heart wrung out to be honest. lol

I know God's here with me though... If He wasn't I would be a mental nutcase. ;) Or maybe...I am already--it's debatable :)

Walking some of the stuff that springs up in my life is hard though... Or I guess knowing how to walk it out in the right way.? If that makes any sense.

I'm trying to just have faith though...God is for me and not against me. This is all for my good and His glory. My job is to love.
May that be the drum beat that I march to.