Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Plan tomorrow.
Bake bread. Clean room. Do laundry.

I freaking love talking to old friends. He doesn't hate me anymore (I think) :)

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Merry Christmas!

It's been a wonderful holiday and I am ready for it to be over though ;)
Also--we finally have gotten a white Christmas in Charlotte!!!!

Friday, December 24, 2010


"By saying there is not truth you are implying that you are speaking truth. And if you are taking notes ladies and gentleman that is called an arguement that commits suicide. It's like saying my brother is an only child or I can't speak a word in English--as soon as you say it--it is not true"
-Scott Klusendorf

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

‎"Yet as I read the birth stories about Jesus I cannot help but conclude that though the world may be tilted toward the rich and powerful, God is tilted toward the underdog."
— Philip Yancey

Monday, December 20, 2010

I love this song.

"Love Is The Reversal"

Welcome to the worldwide train wreck
Welcome to the come undone
Welcome to the big rejection
Welcome to the hit and run
Where mercy cries for everyone

Yeah, nothing is as good as it should be
'Cause this is the rehearsal
Yeah, in between the was and the could be
Love is the reversal

I believe we're underwater
I believe the engine's blown
Yeah I believe our secret longings
Tell us that we're not at home
But grace reclaims what the world disowns
We rebelled. God loved. We fought His ways. God made a peace offering. Grace is gloriously backwards!
-Louie Giglio

I love God.
Louie is pretty awesome though too. :)

Today Stephen and I wrapped all of his presents that he got for him famdamily. It was enjoyable.
In other news--my dad was cranky today--this leads to a very unpleasant household. lol

Sunday, December 19, 2010

‎"Our greatest fear should not be of failure but of succeeding at things in life that don't really matter."
— Francis Chan

Friday, December 17, 2010

I want to learn to love better--and I strongly dislike arrogant people.

God give me grace to love them too.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

real forgiveness

"all sins forgiven. slate wiped clean."

That sounds really good...

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Grr God what do I do....?

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

I'm going to honest.

I had a lovely time with my Lauren friend tonight.
She makes me want to be a better person and it revives my soul when I spend time with her. It is so refreshing to spend time who shares your opinions about Christianity and what Gods heart is.
We talked about how lukewarm people in churches
How God has called us for so much more
And how church has become a show and how we beg people to come.
And is that what Jesus did?

Now here is where I'm going to be scarily honest.

I kind of changed my thought process--and not for a good reason. When my boyfriend and I started dating--I changed how I thought about things because I didn't want to "scare" him off. I tried to become less radical--less crazy--less ridiculous. I rationalized it--told myself that I was wrong before.

Slowly though over the past year or so God's been chipping away at my issues. And changing me and Stephen as well. As I see how drastically Stephen's changed--even in the way he thinks about things, it's reminding me to trust God.

If he is the man for me--then God will be faithful to mold him into the man that he is meant to be just as he promised to faithfully mold me into the woman that I need to be.

And I need to trust God.
Cause when it comes down to it--it's a trust issue.
Do I trust God enough to give him everything?
Even my feelings?
Do I believe that God is going to hold my heart and my hand gently?
Do I believe that He works everything out for the good of those who love Him?
And Dear God--I want to love you.
Help me love you.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

lets get this done and knock it out! :)

Monday, December 6, 2010

Also-do loads and loads of laundry ;)

One final stands between me and freedom.
And I need an 87 for a B.
Yes, getting a 75 on a test (when your tests are worth 20% of your grade will totally screw you over :P)
No chance for an A--but I will live (hopefully) ;)

How come the more I get to know God--the less I feel I

Sunday, December 5, 2010


Things to do after school during Christmas break.

  1. Talk to God
  2. Give Stephen a hug and tell him how glad I am it's over lol
  3. CLEAN ROOM (my room literally looks like an atomic bomb went off)
  4. Read books (lots and lots and lots :))
  5. Finish buying Christmas presents
  6. Wrap Christmas presents
  7. Work
  8. Study for the NCLEX
  9. Talk to friends
  10. Hang out with Justin (and maybe Madison as well :))
  11. See my Lauren friend
  12. See Cassie
I love my little "brother" Justin. Seriously.

Lol He listens to me and we are friends.

Plus he's pretty entertaining.

4 more days!

Friday, December 3, 2010

5. more. days.


Thursday, December 2, 2010

One. More. Week.

I struggle though. I struggle because saying things that I believe offends people and they get mad.

And I hate making people mad.

Dear God,
Please help me.
Help me declare you and stand up for what is good, right, just, and true.
Even if the world stands against me.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010


Do I really believe that my weaknesses could be my biggest strengths?

Do I really believe that in order to be great that I must be weak?

That to be a leader I must be a servant?

What would my life look like and what would I be doing if I was to live completely in God's will?

And what does that look like day to day?

In school and work?

The things I wrestle with.

8. more. days.
Dear God please help me.