Here goes nothing and everything at the same time...

To feel compassion is to feel that we are in some sort and to some extent responsible for the pain that is being inflicted, that we ought to do something about it.

- Aldous Huxley (1894-1963)

I want to be a good nurse.

I am addicted to Saunders NCLEX questions.

It's sad but true.

Clinicals went well this week, my instructor is very...excitable and kind of intimidating to me but it's ok. She's just so smart that I sometimes feel so stupid when I talk with her or ask her questions... But it's ok.

I absolutely loved CVIMC (Cardiovascular Intermediate Care). The nurses were incredibly nice and helpful. I had two different nurses on Tuesday and Wednesday and they both were incredible teachers and so patient. The more I continue on in the hospital the more and more I like critical care. I love kids and I loved peds but critical care is just so interesting.

Alright well I'm done--I need to study. I have a test on Monday and it looks like it's going to be....slightly difficult. (understatement of the century)

All I have to say is that I'm so so excited to have our program head teaching again.

She is by far and away my favorite lecture teacher and one of my top favorite clinical teachers as well. So I welcome this Cardiac Unit with open arms! :) Lets just get this Respiratory out of the way!

*sigh*

Today was not my day.

I had to take a CAP test at school so I can graduate. Basically it's a glorified SAT. Anyways, that was at eight am today--I had all these grand plans of getting up at seven eating breakfast--taking my time.

My mom got home last night and we talked till about two about how my dad's parents were doing what was going on ect. So I was exhausted when I went to bed and forgot to set my alarm. So I wake up this morning--and the first thought that floods my mind is "I feel way to good right now for it just to be seven am. Turn and the clock says 8:22. I freaked. Literally threw my clothes on kind of brushed my teeth--ran a brush through my hair grabbed a pencil, my school badge, and a calculator. Raced to my car jumped in and got to school by 8:35. Thankfully Mrs. Ferguson was amazing and let me take all of the test except for the writing part--which I now have to go in at 8 am on Thursday to take it. But it's ok.

I just hate being late to anything--much less a freaking test. *sigh*

So then afterwards I run home change into clothes I can go to the hospital in to pick up my patient assignment. Get there about twoish and proceed to write down patient meds, history, ect ect. One and a half hours later--I am finished and proceed to introduce myself to my patient--only to find that she is going home in the morning. Grrrrrrrrr! lol I then had to pick up another patient--do paperwork on him introduce myself--then race over to RCCC so that I am not late for my tutoring there.

It was so much fun.

But in all acuality it wasn't that bad. My life isn't bad at all--in fact it's great. I have nothing to complain about--most...the majority of people have it alot worse than I do.

Now I am going to bed and going to try and survive the rest of this week--then we can tackle the rest of this semester :)

Dear God, Help me.
Also Thank you for everythinggggg :)

I'll leave you this quote to think about...

“The place where God calls you is where your deep gladness meets the world’s deep hunger.” -Frederick Buechner

“The world breaks everyone, and afterward, some are strong at the broken places.”
– Ernest Hemingway

Dear God. Please save me this semester. I can't do this without you.
Ming

Clinical Prep done.
Now going to bed because 5:30 comes way to quickly lol

I love this song so much lol

This semester is going to be pretty difficult.

I'm thinking of quiting facebook until May 10th--like it's gonna be that difficult.

And I have to read this semester. Ugh.

Let's see how my first clinical goes this week.

Pray for me please.

‎"Crippled people come to church right? We all come we've got our issues we're messed up. But traditionally what the church has done is rather than rehabbing people--we put them in a wheelchair and just push them around." -Francis Chan

Only in Nursing School...

Would I be sitting at home on a snow day--doing a complete clinical tool on a fictional patient.

Lol.

11 pages on a fake person.

Dear God--help my sanity. lol

Goodbye Christmas break--it's been awesome.

"Most surprising to me was their response when I told them about “church” in America. I did not expect the response I got when I explained how common it is for people to switch churches if they find another with better child-care, better music, or a more gifted speaker. They laughed really hard. It was weird. It was like they thought I was joking. It opened my eyes to the uniqueness of our situation. Remember that India and China combined represent almost 40% of the world’s population. The U.S. represents about 4%. Too often I have looked at other cultures as being strange. I forget that we are the minority."

- http://francischan.org/#/updates

We're so strange.

What do you think Church is about?

Nasty little things viruses are...lol

Sore throats and gunk in your lungs and sinus are not the most fun thing ever.

Remedy--gargle 1tsp of cayenne pepper in a glass of warm water

Drink lemon honey peppermint tea

Chicken noodle soup

Pray.

And do not complain.

http://www.cnn.com/2011/WORLD/asiapcf/01/04/afghanistan.child.trash.scavenger/index.html?hpt=C2

because I have absolutely nothing to complain about.

Jesus has rescued me

:)

"Drinking water before and during a meal helps keep you hydrated and can make you feel full on fewer calories. Drinking water satisfies the craving for having something to put in your mouth instead of a cigarette. One recent study showed that sipping cold water through a straw triggers the release of dopamine, a feel-good hormone in the brain that may counteract stress."

http://www.webmd.com/smoking-cessation/quit-smoking-10/avoid-weight-gain?ecd=wnl_lbt_122210&v=PFX&p=UNK

What do I carry.

"Where you go is not as important as what you carry."

Louie Giglio

I want to carry the name of Jesus. To everyone I know.

Because right now, I carry about everything else...

Please Read.

I need to apologize to you.

I have not lived in a way in a way that shows what I believe.

You may not know this but I am a Christian. Not because it’s popular—not because my parents are. No, I am a Christian because I unequivocally believe that it is true. I believe everything the Bible says whether I like what it says or not.

I say I believe this—and I truly do.

But unfortunately I have not been living as though it were…

And for that I am so very very sorry.

See I believe that there is a Heaven and there is a Hell—and I believe the only way to Heaven is through God’s  Son- Jesus. And I know that there are a lot of you may not agree with me and may even get mad at me for saying that. But I can’t help it—every cell in my being cries out and screams that this is true.

I believe Heaven is an eternal place of wonder, beauty, and love. I believe Hell is a place of eternal place of torment, pain, and death.

And see I believe every person on this earth is broken and sinful and dead. I believe that if you are not a Jesus follower you will go to Hell.

Because God is so so rich in mercy and grace, He adores us. He loves you more than you could ever imagine. He created us and He loves us.

Here is what He thinks about you--

Mess Up.

Definitely.

Deeply Loved.

Anyway.

But with that love came justice and justice demanded that someone pay the debt of our sin. It demanded that someone else must stand in our place and pay our fee if we were to be saved....

So He planned a rescue—an incredible rescue. To rescue us. God sent his Son—His only Son to take all the punishment that was to be ours. God—infinite, all powerful, all knowing—wrapped himself in the flesh of a human—for us. And God offers us Salvation—a rescue. All you have to do is accept it and put your faith in the Hope that Jesus gave us. All you have to do is believe is that Jesus came and died for you and rose again from the dead and is now living—to save you. That’s it. You don’t have to clean up and become a better person. He’s waiting with open arms and outstretched hands waiting for you. And if you do believe the Angels are going to have a party in your honor.

But this isn't a halfway thing--you can't be "kinda" a Christian. No you are either all in or all out.

Now if I believe this—how can I not tell you—and everyone I meet this good news? I know a lot of you may get mad at me and say that I’m being judgmental. But please hear my heart –that is not my intention. I have not said anything for so long because I'm always scared that people are going to get mad. I'm sorry for being such a coward.

I just love you all so much. And if you were to die tomorrow—I would forever regret not sharing with you this incredibly good news. That everything you have ever been searching for can be found in Jesus.

And if you get mad at me so be it. I’d rather you be mad at me instead of never knowing this good news.

Thanks you all who read this. And I’m probably going to be a crazy person and talk to you about it too. And I want you to know I am praying for you all...

And I'm also sorry for all the times I have been a horrible example in other ways--in gossiping or being selfish and hateful, hypocritical.

I am a screw up too.

I love you all.

Thanks.

Ming

Love it. Read it.

I say the local church is so much more, so much better than that. It is no mere institution. It has to be more.

McDonalds offers some pretty tasty fries. We offer, in living color, the world's only hope.

-Brant Hansen.

http://www.morningswithbrant.com/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=545:just-to-be-clear-about-the-400000-pastor&catid=1:brants-brane&Itemid=13#JOSC_TOP

Sometimes David Crowder Lyrics

God created appetites-sin distorted them.

Appetites aren't bad--they are just broken.

-Andy Stanley

(and yes--I did type all these lyrics up lol)

Sometimes--David Crowder Lyrics

Sometimes everyone of us feels

like we'll never be healed...

Sometimes...

Sometimes everyone of us aches

like we'll never be saved

Sometimes...

When we've given up let your healing come

When there's nothing left let your healing come!

Til we're rising up let your healing come

Where you go we will follow!

It's your love that we adore it's like a sea without a shore

We're lost in you

Sometimes...

Sometimes it's like we'll never atone

For all the love we've known

Sometimes like in the smile or a song when you feel it come.

Then that feelings gone...

It flies.

We we've given up let your healing come

When there's nothing left let your healing come

Til we're rising up let Your healing come

Where you go we will follow!

It's your love that we adore it's like a sea without a shore

We're lost in you

Don't be afraid!

Just set your sail!

Let's risk the ocean; there's only grace!!!!!!!

Where you go we will follow-I'm on my knees!

Where you go we will follow-Oh God save me!

Oh God SEND ME!

It's your love that we adore it's like a sea without a shore

We're lost in you!

-David Crowder

The last thing we want to do is create a rah-rah conference.

-Francis Chan

Love him.

It's Your love that we adore. It's like a sea without a shore!

Don't be afraid!

Just set your sail--and risk the ocean.

There's only grace!!!!

-David Crowder

I am watching passion now.

I miss it so much.

Being there with the bass vibrating through your body and surrounded by people who want to proclaim Jesus.

I listened to part of Francis' message and Louie's message tonight.

Gah. I want my life to make sense in light of what I believe.

So bad.

God please help me...