1 test left.
I'm so ready to be done with this semester....
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Elaboration of sorts...
Since my State and Local class got out early and I don't have class until one I thought I might as well elaborate on my previous post.
I wasn't saying that God has taken things way or that He is even going to take any of it away. He very well may not. But it's just my willingness and faith if He was to take it away. Does that makes sense? [also I know at somepoint he will take something away, because I know I have a tendency to make idols out of things. So I'm not saying he never will because eventually I will lose something...but yeah now I'm just sorta going in circles so I'm going to stop. =P]
If God asked me to walk away from my possessions. Can I? If God said you need to leave everything that brings you comfort. Would I be able to go "Gone, done." because I love Him more than anything. He might never ask me to walk away from it all. But if He did, could I do it? I guess it's more of a hypothetical question.
And it really is funny how much stuff like that hurts just thinking about it. God hasn't even taken it away but yet just coming to the end of myself and just really sitting down and counting the cost hurts. My family, friends, material things, dreams and aspirations, are still "options" God hasn't said no to them at this time. Does that make sense? I still might be able to be a nurse, I still have good friends and family, ect..
But I know I have to be able to walk away from those things. I have to be able to say, "God you're so much more important than anything, my relationship with You is so much more important than anything else --- that I will gladly walk away from it all at the drop of the hat. I want to pursue you above all else and get to know You, because that is eternal life."
I wasn't saying that God has taken things way or that He is even going to take any of it away. He very well may not. But it's just my willingness and faith if He was to take it away. Does that makes sense? [also I know at somepoint he will take something away, because I know I have a tendency to make idols out of things. So I'm not saying he never will because eventually I will lose something...but yeah now I'm just sorta going in circles so I'm going to stop. =P]
If God asked me to walk away from my possessions. Can I? If God said you need to leave everything that brings you comfort. Would I be able to go "Gone, done." because I love Him more than anything. He might never ask me to walk away from it all. But if He did, could I do it? I guess it's more of a hypothetical question.
And it really is funny how much stuff like that hurts just thinking about it. God hasn't even taken it away but yet just coming to the end of myself and just really sitting down and counting the cost hurts. My family, friends, material things, dreams and aspirations, are still "options" God hasn't said no to them at this time. Does that make sense? I still might be able to be a nurse, I still have good friends and family, ect..
But I know I have to be able to walk away from those things. I have to be able to say, "God you're so much more important than anything, my relationship with You is so much more important than anything else --- that I will gladly walk away from it all at the drop of the hat. I want to pursue you above all else and get to know You, because that is eternal life."
Sunday, December 9, 2007
Would I give it up willingly?
Would I give it up willingly? Anything?
No, seriously guys. If God told me to walk away from anything could I?
Stuff?
Family?
Friends?
Dreams?
My future?
My life?
Or if in one fell swoop God was to prune all of this stuff out of my life. How would I respond?
As God has poured endless blessings into my life, have I become distracted by them? Have they stolen my gaze when it should be focused on the One giving instead of what is being given? My God is a jealous God. And I assure you that if there is something that I am to attached to that I will not let go of He will kindly graciously remove it for me.
Ugh. Can I really willingly give it all up?
I don't wanna go through the motions
I don't wanna go one more day
Without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don't wanna spend my whole life asking
"What if I had given everything
instead of going through the motions."
No, seriously guys. If God told me to walk away from anything could I?
Stuff?
Family?
Friends?
Dreams?
My future?
My life?
Or if in one fell swoop God was to prune all of this stuff out of my life. How would I respond?
As God has poured endless blessings into my life, have I become distracted by them? Have they stolen my gaze when it should be focused on the One giving instead of what is being given? My God is a jealous God. And I assure you that if there is something that I am to attached to that I will not let go of He will kindly graciously remove it for me.
Ugh. Can I really willingly give it all up?
This might hurt
It’s not safe
But I know that I’ve gotta make a change
I don’t care if I break
At least I’ll be feeling somethingI don't wanna go through the motions
I don't wanna go one more day
Without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don't wanna spend my whole life asking
"What if I had given everything
instead of going through the motions."
Thursday, December 6, 2007
Life
I haven't just written about my life in a while...
1. Maybe it's cause I don't have one?
2. Maybe it's because even though I may have a life [sad though it very well may be], I know you guys really don't care about it.
Either way I haven't done it. So this is going to be a pointless post about what has been going on.
1. School.
and
2. Studying for school.
In between time reading, conversing, and thinking.
My government teacher showed up today dressed up as Santa. I'm scarred for life.
Don't I lead a thrilling life? =P
Anyways, it's crazy to think that it's already December. *audible gasp* Only 19 days till Christmas [I'm almost done Christmas shopping but some people *cough* *cough* need to tell me what they want.] and 26 days until we ring in the bright and shiny new year. 2008. Whoa.
PS. For those of you who think I'm in denial about some things [you know who you are. =P]
It's not denial. See below.
1. Maybe it's cause I don't have one?
2. Maybe it's because even though I may have a life [sad though it very well may be], I know you guys really don't care about it.
Either way I haven't done it. So this is going to be a pointless post about what has been going on.
1. School.
and
2. Studying for school.
In between time reading, conversing, and thinking.
My government teacher showed up today dressed up as Santa. I'm scarred for life.
Don't I lead a thrilling life? =P
Anyways, it's crazy to think that it's already December. *audible gasp* Only 19 days till Christmas [I'm almost done Christmas shopping but some people *cough* *cough* need to tell me what they want.] and 26 days until we ring in the bright and shiny new year. 2008. Whoa.
PS. For those of you who think I'm in denial about some things [you know who you are. =P]
It's not denial. See below.
Monday, December 3, 2007
rest in it because you have it....
My head is full.
My eyes are tired.
I am loved.
I was loved.
...loved guys.
God doesn't love me because of something I did or didn't do.
He loved me before...
"You are always, always, always, loved and you never need to go anywhere else other than God to find it. As a Christian in this room---as anyone in this room, I beg you, learn not to pursue God's love like you have to earn it but learn to rest in it because you have it. And let that motivate your whole life."
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Now playing: Brian Colmery - John 3:16 - Part 1: For God so Loved the World
My eyes are tired.
I am loved.
I was loved.
...loved guys.
God doesn't love me because of something I did or didn't do.
He loved me before...
"You are always, always, always, loved and you never need to go anywhere else other than God to find it. As a Christian in this room---as anyone in this room, I beg you, learn not to pursue God's love like you have to earn it but learn to rest in it because you have it. And let that motivate your whole life."
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Now playing: Brian Colmery - John 3:16 - Part 1: For God so Loved the World
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