This is probably going to tick people off...

Here's my heart ripped open. I'm going to be honest. Scarily honest here. And if you don't want to get mad--then don't read this. Also feel free to send me emails that disagree with me, I honestly would love to dialog with people who don't agree with me. I really would, and I'm not going to try to convince you of anything--I just want to understand things better...

Ok deep breath...here we go kids.

Can't ignore it. Can't turn away. Can't excuse it. I just can't.

It'd be easier if I could. But I can't.
And it makes my heart ache.
You can think I'm weird.

What does it look like to love people like myself...
Practically what does that look like?

One day I will stand before God, and one day God will say to people depart from me, I never knew you.

Maybe I'm completely off, but I was reading Matthew and just sorta sat in chapter 25 for a while. The Final Judgment part.

31 “When the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, then he will sit on his glorious throne. 32 Before him will be gathered all the nations, and he will separate people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. 33 And he will place the sheep on his right, but the goats on the left. 34 Then the King will say to those on his right, ‘Come, you who are blessed by my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world. 35 For I was hungry and you gave me food, I was thirsty and you gave me drink, I was a stranger and you welcomed me, 36 I was naked and you clothed me, I was sick and you visited me, I was in prison and you came to me.’ 37 Then the righteous will answer him, saying, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you drink? 38 And when did we see you a stranger and welcome you, or naked and clothe you? 39 And when did we see you sick or in prison and visit you?’ 40 And the King will answer them, ‘Truly, I say to you, as you did it to one of the least of these my brothers, you did it to me.’

....How do you explain this away? Yes, reading your bible is important, yes going to church is important, going on mission trips is great--but...I think there's more to it than this.


Imagine you have nothing to eat, your kids are starving to death and you have to sit there while you watch them waste away. Imagine it is frigid out and you have nothing to wear. 


Imagine you were like this--what would you do? What would you want people to do for you?


Love others as you love yourselves. Count others as more important than yourself. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.


We spout out those verses when convenient to us. When they don't stretch us, don't impede on our comfort and security.

God is a safe God.
  
Or....maybe not.


Maybe our God isn't tame and maybe just maybe he doesn't like being put in a box?

To the desperate eyes and reaching hands
To the suffering and the lean
To the ones the world has cast aside
Where you want me I will be

I will go, I will go
I will go, Lord send me
To the world, To the lost
To the poor and hungry
Take everything I am
I'm clay within your hands
I will go, I will go, send me

Let me not be blind with privilege
Give me eyes to see the pain
Let the blessing You've poured out on me
Not be spent on me in vain
Let this life be used for change

I wanna live for you
Go where you lead me
I wanna follow you

                                                   

From every nation

God is calling out His own
A saved generation
that will not be overthrown

And we're not backing down, no way
We're finally seeing it clearly
One body, one church, one savior,
One call to praise

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There are days I wish I was normal.