Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Am I crazy?
Questions running through my head; Do I think to much? Do I question things to much? Is it a bad thing not to just accept things because they are "traditional" or just the way it's always been done? Does this questioning mean that I'm just a rebellious kid? Does it have to mean that I'm just looking for excuses to do what I want? 'Cause that's not what I mean to be and do. I just want to do/not do things because I have thought through them for myself and I want to have convictions of my own. I don't just want to do them because it's what everyone else does. I want to own this faith--- this Christianity thing. I want it to be mine. I don't want it to be mine because of my parents or because of my pastors or because of my friends. No. I have to own it for myself--or it's just not going to last and when hard stuff comes along, if I don't own it then how can I posses it. Does that make sense? And part of the process of owning this faith for myself is questioning things. Is this bad?