"To suppose that whatever God requireth of us that we have power of ourselves to do, is to make the cross and grace of Jesus Christ of none effect."
So often I think I can make it on my own, it's like "Oh read my bible, don't get mad at my parents, don't murder, don't lie, and on and on and on. Easy I'm there." But then when I don't do the things God requires I get ticked at myself, when in fact I never should have been trying to make it on my own in the first place.
For me to think that I can do those things on my own is pretty much shoving the cross and God's grace back in His face with a decisive "I don't need it." How can I do that? It's almost like I have this horrible disease that I'm going to die from, and someone offers me a completely free perfect cure and I go "Pffft I don't need it."
But that's what I do. It just is. Ahhhhh and the frustrating thing is the only way I can even realize that I do that, is because of God and His saving work. Basically it allllll goes back to HIM.